Cheers to 2024

Well, my friends, 2023 is officially over. In the spirit of complete honesty, to say I struggled during the month of December would be an extreme understatement. My desire to feel like Buddy the Elf was genuine, however I found myself feeling like Cindy Lou Who and Charlie Brown entirely. It seemed like anywhere I looked for Christmas spirit I came up a bit empty. When did Christmas become about lists and obligations rather than magic and joy? I’ve been feeling this way for a few years, however this year it seemed magnified.

Now don’t get me wrong. There were wonderful moments with family and friends scattered throughout the month. A weekend visit from a dear friend, a pajama party with wonderfully fun friends, happy hour hour/shopping night and baking with my mom, some pizza/couch time with a beautiful soul and spending time with my kiddos. These are all memories I hold dear.

Unfortunately, along with the stress and joy, December also brought the loss of our sweet family dog, Leo. We found out he had cancer December 11th, he stopped eating and drinking water and we had to put him to rest December 28th. It was a complete whirlwind and indescribably heartbreaking. Savanna and I drove to California to say goodbye to him on December 13th and he did a complete 180. He started eating again and drinking water so it felt like we might have him for a bit longer. That only lasted a week though and then no more food at all which was very unlike him. The boy loved food and never missed an opportunity to eat so I knew he was sick. He spent Christmas in Arizona with my mom, Savanna, Sammy and I. I will treasure the final days we got to love on him forever. He was the sweetest soul and was such a support for me while I was going through the most challenging time in my life. I will miss him dearly.

Reflecting on the last 31 days, I’ve decided that my take away from the month of December and 2023 in general is that life is about balance. Every morning I wake up, I have a new opportunity to show up for myself and the people I love. Over the last few months, when something that might be considered negative happens, I’ve started asking myself, “what’s the lesson I’m supposed to be learning right now?”. This is helping me to take every situation and make the best of it. Losing Leo taught me to love big every day and not take anyone for granted. Time is not guaranteed.

“Life is balance of holding on and letting go.” ~Rumi

I’m wishing tranquility and bliss to you all in 2024.

XOXO ~ Steph